...nothing interesting to write about except for this hollow in my heart and this grey cloud that suddenly settled over me.
...was doing fine a few hours ago until I got home.
...this is why I don't like staying at home without anything to do. It makes me think of things I shouldn't be really thinking about.
...why does it always rain on my parade?
...I was ok being neurotic and OC until I became too happy...way too happy...no wonder it scared the hell out of me.
...I feel like going for a walk...maybe that's what I should do. Get some fresh air into my system.
...Tomorrow's another day. I really hope the sun will shine tomorrow.
...Pangarap, the song.
...AAAARRRGGGGHHH!!! The silence is killing me!
...Ok let's get to the bottom of this...let's do some root-cause analysis
Why am I feeling melancholy?
-Because I feel so helpless
Why do I feel so helpless?
-Because there's nothing I can do but wait
Why do I have to wait?
-Because I don't want to be faced with another painful situation.
Why?
-Because I've been hurt way too many times and I am just so sick and tired of it.
But what I'm doing now is hurting me as it is...
-Yes I know but it's something I think I can live with.
Are you sure?
-Positive.
If you say so...
...did I reach a conclusion? No...I just feel more confused and melancholy now.
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